Step of Sky

Miles of extension
The desolate moorland
A gleaming bright green

But only
For no birds are there
Not even an interesting stalk of flower

Rustle of grasses beneath as I stroll
Feeling good as always
But never perfect

Paroxysms of tension
I experience
As it all turns over

A step of sky
The desolate moorland
Now above

It’s real I know
It’s perfect I know
Belief I hold
A step of sky, always

But what if
It all turns back
To touch the desolate moorland my steps would
To soar beyond my reach the sky would
Perfectness I would not have
But feel good I still would

Mind I wouldn’t
A step of sky, always
Perfectness is omnipotent

One day
My heart may pull
And my tears may water the plants
Because I love a step of sky
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What this poem means:
We all love to be optimistic, don't we? I love to be optimistic. Yes, I do. Although I feel good about who I am and what I have right now, there's never a sense of perfectness. I love this sense of perfectness and that's why I tend to expect things - very good or sweet things, perfect things, of course. I know I shouldn't even be thinking this way: to expect the perfect to happen, but I just can't help it - getting that feeling of perfectness feels so great! Because of this, there were and are times when I would expereice a heartbreak or extreme sadness when things that I expect do not happen.

I am a person who always expect things. But I have to pay a price for that - that my heart may pull and that my tears may drop anytime. I just don't know when. But of course, if my expectations are reached, I would be one of the happiest persons. I have experienced times when my expectations were not reached and the feeling was horrible, but I have experienced times when my expectation were reached and the feeling was out of this world - yeah, I just kept on smiling and smiling and smiling.

I have 3 expectations/wishes left for this year. Yes, I want a step of sky. I would love these expectations to come true. Let's just hope I would be smiling by the end of the year. Please.
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